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LIVING BELIEF  - CHAPTER 7

AND BEYOND:  THE SELF RELEASED

 Contents:

1. The end of the journey?  9. Do we truly lose the self?
2. The growth of mature trust 10. Death: the real and total loss of the self
3. We must practise the art of letting go 11. Death: the final stage of growth
4. Growth through loving and letting go 12. Do we have a last chance?
5. Suffering as self-giving 13. Death offers us our meaning
6. Forgiveness: the hardest kind of letting-go 14. The meaning we are offered
7. A new and deeper faith Chapter Summary
8. The one certainty
 

We have looked at the main Christian beliefs in order to see how these may illuminate the events and stages of a person’s life journey.  In the light of the Creation doctrine and of the scientific knowledge concerning our origins, a traveler may understand that he and his journey began with the birth of the universe, and he may believe that he and his destiny are part of all that lives or has ever lived.  He may see himself as a gift made in the image of his Creator, given from all those who came before him, to be of benefit to all who will come after.  This would offer the traveller a very positive picture of himself and his value, and of the world and its goodness.  But in the doctrine of Original Sin he is offered an insight into the manifest suffering and evil in the world and an understanding of the difficulties each of us has in growing physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, morally – difficulties which form the basis of much of the work of psychology and the social sciences.

In the doctrine of Salvation the traveller may find a deeper understanding of the common human belief, now borne out by psychological studies, that we can grow as human beings only if we are given love.  The doctrine of Incarnation affirms the psychologist’s view that love enables us to establish a proper identity, but it extends it in declaring that our true and full self-image is nothing less than that of God.  The Trinity doctrine confirms what most people appear to feel in their hearts, that persons growing together in love are the ultimate good, the meaning of all that exists and the purpose of our journey.  This is the absolute value which we see defended by all good people as they fight against greed and injustice, and against war, poverty, vice and cruelty.  The doctrine of the Church is the sign of this task for all Christians; in the Holy Spirit they are moved to oppose evil and alleviate suffering in celebrating, declaring and demonstrating God’s love for the world.

 

1.    THE END OF THE JOURNEY?            

So have we now had a complete explanation of Christian beliefs, and the full story of human growth?  Hardly.  To suggest that would once again be to turn truth into a finite possession, and religion into superstition and idolatry.  As we have said right from the beginning of this work, the portrayal of the Christian doctrines in terms of love and persons, and the comparison of this with the findings of science, is just one way of expressing what those beliefs might tell us about ourselves.  Those terms and comparisons may offer a truth-full and helpful understanding, fitting what people believe about themselves and addressing the questions and confusion they express about the apparent clash between science and religion.  But there may be other and better models for making sense from the doctrines.  In no way have we tidied the matter up, explaining, defining and describing the facts about God, the world and ourselves.  Whenever anyone has suggested that this has been done, the result has been to take from people their right and duty to seek constantly for better religious understanding.  If the pictures and comparisons we have suggested illuminate the doctrines and make it easier for people to use them in their search for truth, the purpose has been served.

It is equally important that we should not think that we have described the end and fulfillment of a person’s life when we have shown him as possessing his self-image and loving his neighbour as himself.

The work by Erikson from which we have quoted is entitled ‘The Life Cycle Completed’, and in it he examines the whole of the life span, from infancy to old age.  At one time developmental psychology looked only at the growth of the person up to maturity, and it was Erikson who was influential in suggesting that psychological development goes on throughout the whole of life.  In this particular book he presents the eight stages of life in reverse order, beginning with old age.  He does this in order to stress the point that each stage contributes to those that follow; the final stage is therefore seen as the one which is derived from and sums up all that has gone before.

As we have seen, Erikson proposes that there are essential qualities which emerge at each stage from the struggle between positive and negative tendencies.  The opposing tendencies in the crisis of the last stage he describes as integrity versus despair, and the strength which should emerge from this struggle is that of wisdom.  If the struggle is lost, Erikson suggests that the resulting state is that of disdain or disgust.  To put it in other words, in old age we have the tendency to see our lives as coming together in wholeness, or as falling apart into meaninglessness.  If we follow the latter path we will end our lives in self-disgust and contempt for all that we have known.  But if integrity wins the struggle, then we approach the end of life in a state which Erikson calls wisdom, and he relates this back to the very first stage at the opening of life.  The basic trust there which produced the strength of hope, which in turn permitted the development of faith and faithfulness in adolescence, Erikson now sees emerging into a mature hopefulness and a new and deeper faith.
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2.    THE GROWTH OF MATURE TRUST 

Let us suppose that the traveler has found his true self, has loved that self properly, and has given from that self to others.  He has done his best to love without limits, even or especially when he receives nothing in return.  But now he has come to the last, perhaps the most challenging, stage of life.  Now he must begin to give up that self which was so hard for him to find and establish.  It is true that once he had achieved a good self-image he was able to forget himself and to turn outward towards others; to that extent he has already loosened his first anxious hold on his selfhood.  But now he has really to relax that hold, and to let go of the comfort and security of believing he knows who he is and where he is heading.  Now as the power he had over his own life diminishes, he must learn to trust in the goodness of God.

Up to now the traveller’s journey through life may have been hard, uncertain work, but now it becomes a journey towards darkness and mystery.  If he feels that he has arrived finally at a warm, well-lit and comfortable destination, then we may be sure that his journey is incomplete.  A person may believe, and be encouraged by some in his Church to believe, that he has reached his destination when he is living a good and loving life, obeying the ‘rules’ consequent upon that love, giving without limits.  He may find it hard to accept that he must now loosen his hold on all this.  He must learn to have everything taken from him, little by little or more suddenly, and he must learn to give it all up willingly and with love.  This stage of letting-go may be the hardest test of his faith, hope and love.
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3.    WE MUST PRACTICE THE ART OF LETTING GO

We are speaking of this letting-go rather artificially in talking about it as a final stage occurring at the end of a long and fruitful life, because of course this is not really how it happens.  All of us suffer some losses throughout our lives, and some have to give up a great deal very early, in losing someone close to them, or when work, home, possessions are taken from them, or when they lose their health through accident or disease.  If we have been able to accept such losses then we will be better prepared to deal with the task that faces us in our last age.  This may all sound very negative to us when we are in the midst of enjoying our life, but in fact it is potentially the most positive and fulfilling of all the stages of our existence.  This is recognized in the Eastern religious traditions which describe the first three ages of man, the student, the family man, the business man, as only preparatory, to be discarded once the person has entered the ultimate stage, that of withdrawal, contemplation and wisdom.

Today people live longer and have in general better resources than those in generations past, and they may be able to enjoy many years of secure and comfortable retirement.  Yet even for these fortunate people there will be increasingly losses.  Retirement itself, however welcome, can bring not only reduced earnings but also a loss of status and respect.  Older people are much better able to look after their health now than in the past but there must eventually be some loss of vigor, of acuteness of hearing and eyesight, of mental and physical abilities.  For many, loss of independence causes considerable suffering, when they find themselves less able to get about, or becoming a burden on relatives, or living among strangers in a home.  For most of us the loss of family, of old friends, of our partner, is the hardest to bear.

If we try to pretend that none of this will happen to us, if we spend our lives clutching at our possessions, our health, our loved ones, it can only tear us apart when they are taken from us.  If you hold something tightly in your hand and I pull it from you, you will be hurt: but if you open your hand, you will not.  You will still suffer the loss, but you will not have a part of yourself torn away with it.  We have to learn as early in life as we can that everything is lent to us, to be held always with open hands.  But from all that has been said we know that this cannot be possible unless and until a person has a sufficient feeling of his self-worth, because until that is the case he will try to hold on to things and people to reassure himself.  Loss can only damage a person who does not have the security and sound self-image to cope with it.  A child who loses her mother may not be able to let her go until much later in her life, when she has come to terms with herself.
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4.    GROWTH THROUGH LOVING AND LETTING GO

Someone who has a proper self-image can begin to let go as and when he has to, and can prepare himself for all the letting-go that must come.  This does not mean that we are not to appreciate and enjoy our achievements and pleasures, our homes and our health, or that we are not to love our family and friends.  On the contrary it should help us to value them more truly when we accept that they are not possessions but gifts, freely given, to be received with gratitude and released without resentment.

It is wrong and harmful to believe that suffering is good in itself.  Unfortunately there are elements in some of the religious traditions which would suggest otherwise.  In Hindu teaching, for instance, it can be understood that suffering is the result of bad deeds in a former life, and that it is therefore ‘deserved’ as a punishment.  But such a belief could surely give rise to an acceptance of others’ suffering, even to a callous attitude towards it, in the supposition that it is just and good for them.  In the Islamic faith it would be possible to see suffering as something imposed by God to test our obedience, and indeed this is a view which has found expression in Judaism and Christianity, as we shall see.  It is difficult to see how anyone could reconcile the belief in a good God, as it is expressed in the biblical story of Creation which each of these religions reveres, with a picture of him as testing someone’s goodness by giving cancer to a child.

The whole of the Buddhist faith, however, is based upon the Buddha’s profound understanding of the problem of suffering.  He taught that everything in life is a source of suffering, even the good things, since we may either not obtain them or must inevitably lose them.  Our suffering arises from our desire to have and to hold, and our unwillingness to accept that this is impossible.  The Buddha said that happiness and peace lie in learning to give up this craving for what we cannot possess.

The biblical writers have offered a variety of views on suffering, all of which have had some influence on Jewish and Christian thinking on the subject, although not all could be said to be of equal value.  The Psalmist, for instance, offers a rather fairy-tale picture (Psalm 37) when he declares that the good enjoy happiness in this world while the evil suffer.  Ecclesiastes, on the other hand, suggests the more cynical view that it doesn’t matter whether you are good or bad since all suffer in the end.  (Ecclesiastes 9 :  1-12)  In the Book of Wisdom we see the idea, already referred to, of suffering as a test:

“Having been disciplined a little, they will receive great good, because God tested them and found them worthy of himself;”  (Wisdom 3 : 5)

The Book of Job, acknowledged to be one of the world’s greatest pieces of literature on the subject, opposes the prevailing view that only the evil suffer.  Job, a truly good man, is afflicted with terrible sufferings and demands to know of God why the innocent should suffer.  In the end he accepts that he should not question God since he cannot understand as God does.  The lesson we can learn from this is that we must accept suffering and loss as facts.  The biblical writer here suggests that only God can understand what meaning they have, but it can be said that they have no meaning, for God any more than for us, since he does not mean them.  Suffering, the writer of Genesis has affirmed, came into the world only with our evil, and it is no part of God’s plan or purpose.  For Christians this is seen most clearly in Jesus’ reaction to suffering; he who was God Incarnate spent the greater part of his public life in trying to overcome suffering wherever he encountered it.

Suffering and loss are not good in themselves, but they are an inevitable part of life, and we can harm ourselves by becoming bitter about them.  Possessions, health, loved ones, happiness, are good in themselves and yet we can harm ourselves by clinging to them.  What really matters, as the Buddha has said, as the psychologists have demonstrated, as the Bible asserts, is what we do with all these elements in our lives.  In the case of possessions, for instance, St Paul tells us not that money is the root of evil, as it is often misquoted, but that the love of money is the root of evil.  (1 Tim 6 : 10)

It is the desire to have and to keep which destroys us, not the thing in itself.  The same point is made in the New Testament, when we hear Jesus telling his disciples that it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven.  (Matthew 19 : 23-24)  People have called this harsh, but they are missing the point.  It is not the accident of how much money a person has which decides his fate: Jesus is only emphasizing that it is hard for any of us to be willing to let go of what we have, but that for the rich man it must be almost impossible.

No one should suggest that the person who has worked hard all his life and has managed to set himself up in a comfortable home with enough money for his needs is doing wrong, or that he should give it all away and become destitute.  Of course people must provide for themselves and for their family at every stage of their lives, and in their later years in particular people need a decent level of comfort and security.  What we are saying is that no one should ever allow himself to be imprisoned by his needs.  All through life, but most especially in our later age, we must prepare ourselves to be able to lose what we have and what we love, so that the loss will not diminish our sense of self.

If we demand, hold on to, insist on keeping, possessions, people, happiness, this is lust, not love.  It reduces ourselves and all that we love to subjects and objects of desire, instead of being the free gifts of God for each other.  We must learn to love and let go.  If we do this, then not only will our experiences of loss and suffering not destroy us: they will cause us to grow as persons more surely than will any of the other events in our lives.  We do grow from our experience of love and happiness of course, but it is the way we face the difficulties and challenges of our lives which gives us the strength to complete our journey.
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5.    SUFFERING AS SELF-GIVING

We have spoken so far of accepting suffering in a rather negative sense, because we have to, because it makes no sense to fight against it.  But there is a further, even more powerful truth to be found in trying to make sense of this difficult matter.  In the Old Testament it was the prophet Isaiah who proposed that the sufferings of the innocent can in some way be of benefit to the world.  Speaking of the mysterious figure of the Suffering Servant he says:

“But he was wounded for our transgressions,
he was bruised for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that made us whole,
and with his stripes we are healed.”                           (Isaiah 53 :  5)

Here we have the idea of suffering not just as something negative to be accepted but as something positive that we can do for others.  In our study of the growth of the self we have come to the ultimate possibility for that growth – self-sacrifice, the act of self-giving.  All love is a giving from the self and, as we have said, love is action.  Most of the loving actions which people perform involve effort; many involve suffering.  Some loving actions demand courage and endurance which should be beyond our reach.  Most of us know the effort and even hardship involved in providing and caring for our families, supporting others in difficult times, doing what we can to help those in need.  In doing these things we give up a great deal of our comfort and self-interest.  And there are those who give up all that they might have for themselves in order to look after elderly parents, or a sick child, or people they don’t even know, the helpless and destitute in their own country or in a foreign land.  Then there are those who risk and offer their lives for others in war, in accidents, in natural disasters.  Isaiah’s belief that the suffering of innocent people can help others could seem strange, perhaps even repugnant, until we remember that it happens all around us every day.  Even the suffering and death of a child can be given meaning and value in the strength and courage of those who care for him, and in the efforts towards research of the illness and support for its victims which may result from that loss.

We need to be aware, however, that genuine self-sacrifice can deteriorate into a bitter or proud self-martyrdom which is poisonous to the one who gives and the one who receives the sacrifice.  The mother who turns her love into a burden of guilt for her family, reproaching them with ‘all she has done for them’, is a familiar example.  Scott Peck says that love is ‘an extension, rather than a sacrifice (of the self).  Genuine love is a replenishing activity.  If we give ourselves to others in a way that diminishes us, that is not love’  (p. 116)

Isaiah’s insight endorses our understanding that a person can help others by accepting suffering for himself.  This is the most profound and life-enhancing of all the views offered in the Old Testament on this problem of suffering, and on the potential goodness of human beings.  But what now of God?  Even when we accept that God does not cause or desire our sufferings, we might yet resent the thought that he sits watching them, and approving us for our nobility in accepting suffering for the sake of others.  We could even come to despise God as being incapable of that degree of love.

But has God been outdone in love and goodness?  Does he sit unmoved while human beings give themselves and their lives for others?  The Christian view of God’s relationship to our suffering is unique, beyond belief, and yet the only one which could meet our demands: God does not will evil, or our suffering and death, nor does he stand by while we struggle against them for each others’ sake.  In the life and agony and death of Jesus he has given himself to overcome them, and has made the only response mankind could possibly accept to the sufferings which would otherwise call into question any belief in our value and his goodness and love.
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6.    FORGIVENESS:  THE HARDEST KIND OF LETTING-GO 

One aspect of human life in which letting-go is of vital importance, yet almost impossibly demanding, is that of injury by another.  We all experience insults, hurts and damage as we go through life and the ‘natural’ reaction is one of anger and resentment.  But for those who suffer a terrible assault such as rape, violent robbery, torture, the murder of someone they love, the reaction must be hatred, bitterness and a desire for revenge.  This must be the greatest challenge to face the human spirit in its resistance to the downward pull of our fallen nature.  But our common experience, supported by psychological studies on the stressful effects of harbouring anger and resentment, tells us that it is not only morally better to let go of those feelings, it is also better for our health and well-being.  ‘Forgive your enemy’ does not mean letting him go unpunished and free to commit that crime again.  That would be unwise and unjust.  But when we have helped the law to do what is necessary, we then have to free ourselves from the burden of hatred and anger which will only compound the original injury and make us more completely the victim of our aggressor.  If the mother of the murder victim can let go of her hate in forgiveness, and can ‘love her enemy’ in the sense of wishing that he will find goodness and not further harm, then she will attain a freedom and strength which most of us will never reach, the freedom and strength seen in Jesus as he prayed on the cross for his persecutors, “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.”  (Luke 23 : 34)
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7.    A NEW AND DEEPER FAITH

Erikson said that in our last age we should develop a mature hopefulness and a new and deeper faith.  We have seen how that mature hopefulness can grow when we have learned to accept the sufferings and losses which must come to all of us, thereby preparing ourselves to let go of all that we have clung to, and to trust ourselves ultimately to the love and goodness of God.  But what of faith?

At no time in our lives will we have a greater need of real faith than at this age, when we have to deal with one very important form of loss, the loss of our certainties.  Once again, there are those who will have experienced this loss earlier in their lives, but for many of us it comes only after much hard experience.  When we are young, much of what we think is black and white.  In our middle years we may come to doubt and question, but may hide or run away from our resulting unsureness, or simply replace old certainties with new ones.  Scott Peck has said that we are not born with our life-maps but that we have continually to make and remake them.  Many are unwilling to make the effort and give up in middle age.  Only a few, he suggests, go on till death exploring the mystery of reality.  (p.45)  If we do go on exploring we may discover in our later years not just that we have fewer certainties but that there are very few to be had.

We remember that Erikson suggests that the opposing tendencies in the crisis of our last stage are integrity versus despair, that the strength which should emerge from this struggle is wisdom, and that if the struggle is won we see our lives coming together in wholeness, but that if it is lost they fall apart into meaninglessness and despair.  A vital part of that struggle concerns the way we have come to understand our beliefs, and especially our life-view or religious beliefs.  As we have stressed, religious beliefs and doctrines are not facts to be stated and possessed: they are symbols, pointers, guides for the person as he journeys in search of truth.  If by our last age they have become ‘dead certainties’ then they can no longer be living guides but only a burden we must carry to the grave.  There can be a tendency in authoritarian religious traditions to turn beliefs, rituals and rules into such burdens, and too many good people stagger to the very end carrying them, instead of being helped along by them.

The mystics of each tradition point us away from this danger.  While remaining within their tradition they are able, because of their personal experiences, to move in it freely as they travel their road, and even to challenge the current expression of it where that seems to be leading them away from their goal.  It would be helpful for an older person to read some of the writings of the great saints and poets of their tradition, in order to gain an insight into how they became free to soar towards God in their individual and unique ways, supported and inspired by their beliefs, rather than weighed down or imprisoned by an improperly rigid understanding of them.  It takes courage to let go of safe certainties; our doctrines and creeds and religious community can lead us towards this point, but in the end we have to move on alone to make our leap of faith towards the mystery of God.
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8.    THE ONE CERTAINTY

The one certainty – the one living certainty – is that we must die.  We are mortal.  We all know it, yet we rarely have any real grasp of it.  But as we grow older the idea becomes more real, with every winter and with every loss. Anyone who has been told that they have a fatal illness will know that this brings not just a deeper understanding but another dimension of realization altogether.  What we face at death is nothing less than the total loss of the self.
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9.    BUT DO WE TRULY LOSE THE SELF? 

The Christian tradition does of course put before us the hope of an eternal life, and sets this in our minds as a place or a state of happiness.  Not only that but, unlike many religions, it says that in this eternal life we will be bodily presented, not disembodied spirits.  Many Christians, however, repeat in their Creed that they believe in ‘the resurrection of the body’ while finding the idea very difficult to accept.  But like the other doctrines it does hold together with the belief in persons as the ultimate value.  As we have seen, Jews and Christians regard persons as embodied spirits, seeing the body as good and essential to what a person is.  In the Christian tradition, the culmination of the Incarnation in the Resurrection is a powerful affirmation that our bodies are not to be regarded as disposable husks, of little importance, or even a hindrance, to our immortal souls.  In the Resurrection of Jesus, God has shown us that we are essentially embodied selves, that this is good, and that it is permanent.  Whatever discussion there may be of the Resurrection reports, it is clear that the Gospel writers were at pains to stress the reality of this for them, in accounts such as that of a disciple’s touching Jesus’ hand and side, and of Jesus eating breakfast with his friends.
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10.    DEATH:  THE REAL AND TOTAL LOSS OF THE SELF 

Yet there was one note which was constant in every account of meeting the risen Jesus; on each occasion, those seeing him did not at first recognize him.

The teachings and traditions about eternal life offer us hope and comfort as we and those we love approach death.  It is right that they should support our hope, and it is very human for people to represent the future of their existence in familiar pictures in order to deal with the fear of death.  Jesus himself spoke to his disciples of the ‘many rooms in his Father’s house which he would prepare for them’.  (John 14 : 2)

What is not right, and what may be really harmful to us, is to take these beliefs and hopes and pictures as concrete facts, thereby trivializing, almost eliminating, death as if it were no more than popping into the next room.  If we do that we trivialize our life and ourselves.  We are truly mortal.  We do really die.  We lose the self wholly.  This is and always has been Christian belief.  St Paul says: ‘Someone will ask, “How are the dead raised?  With what kind of body do they come?”  You foolish man!  What you sow does not come to life unless it dies.  And what you sow is not the body which is to be, but a bare kernel……So it is with the resurrection of the dead.  What is sown is perishable, what is raised is imperishable….For the trumpets will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable.’  (1 Corinthians 15 : 35-52)

God does not gather up old bones and recycle us so that we can carry on as before.  We will be God’s new work in us.

Even for Jesus himself this was so.  His death was real.  It could not be otherwise, since he is human.  At the end of his life he lost everything; his freedom, his body’s wholeness, his dignity, his work, his friends.  Jesus had no illusions and he never taught dead certainties; but on the cross even the one thing of which he must have felt most sure, the love of his Father, even that seemed to be lost to him.  His cry ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?’ sounds the depths and finality of human loss.  No one has ever had more taken from him: and yet it was not taken, because he gave it willingly and with love.  At the moment when it seemed that his Father was no longer with him, Jesus gave himself to him with his last words: “Father, into Thy hands I commend my spirit.”

It is sometimes hard for people to believe that Jesus, who was God, did not know anything beyond this.  But Jesus was human and he could not have known.  This must be true or there is no reality in human death, and certainly no reality or value in his.  He went into the dark, just as we will, but with faith, as we must.  It has been said so many times that faith is not the intellectual acceptance of beliefs, but a deep movement of trust.  Jesus felt that God had deserted him, and he leapt into his arms.  He gave his self, and did not ask to get back what he had given.  What kind of giving would it have been if he had?  In our last moment we too must give our last gift; we must give up our self, letting it go completely into God’s hands and not asking for its return.
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11.    DEATH: THE FINAL STAGE OF GROWTH

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross is a psychiatrist and a world-renowned authority and counsellor on death.  Her work was influential in the development worldwide of the hospice movement.  The title of her 1975 book, ‘Death – the Final Stage of Growth’ clearly indicates her positive view on the subject.  She feels that the promise of death is one of the strongest forces in moving a person to grow.  It makes us look beyond our daily round towards something more.  She would say that the ‘more’ is our growth towards becoming fully ourselves, fully human.  Those who share in the death of someone who understood its meaning are, she suggests, likely to grow from that experience.

We have referred to the need for us to practice letting-go, and Dr Kubler-Ross proposes that having a proper understanding of death can help us to do this because dying is something we do continuously, not just at the end of our lives. Change is an essential element of our existence, and if we can face death we are better able to face up to the changes and challenges of life. The greatest challenge is the search for our true self – the ultimate goal of growth.

From death we learn how to live. Living without change is not living at all, not growing at all. Without knowing of our death we cannot know how to live. The dying stage of our life can be our greatest opportunity for growth.

Scott Peck says that ‘Giving up or loss of the old self is an integral part of the process of mental and spiritual growth.’  (p. 70)  But he offers a note of warning about preparing for this final stage of growth: ‘You must have something in order to give it up.  You must develop an ego before you can lose it.’  (p. 77)  ‘The path of sainthood goes through adulthood…Ego boundaries must be hardened before they are softened.  An identity must be established before it can be transcended.  One must find one’s self before one can lose it.’  (p. 97)
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12.    DO WE HAVE A LAST CHANCE? 

But what of those who have not done much growing during their lives?  Can they still learn about what life means in those last days and hours when they face its end?  People have talked about death-bed conversions, but most might doubt the possibility or reality of such miraculous changes of heart.  Yet miracles do happen.  People working in hospices have seen the transformation which is possible when someone who has cared for no one during their life finds meaning for the first time in the lives of other people and in the love they receive from them.  This has been our constant theme throughout the present work.  To be yourself is to mean something to someone else.  You cannot directly create your self: it can only be given to you by another.

We are saved by love – even on our deathbed.
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13.    DEATH OFFERS US OUR MEANING 

Death is like a mirror held up at the end of life to show us what that life is.  Keeping our mirror in sight, we can live every day fully in order to make the life reflected there ever more meaningful.  Death is the deepest mystery of the self because it is only in the letting-go of the self that we can ultimately find our true self.  The doctrine of the Resurrection declares that Jesus attained the fullness of his life in giving it up for love, and from this we understand that we must do the same.  We have no safe certainty about this, or even a satisfactory understanding of it.  If we had, our giving would be unreal and useless.

Yet could anything else be true?  Could we go through this long, often painful, process of growth as persons through love, only to be wiped out?  If we are meant to grow into our full self-image and so become God-like, how could we then cease to exist?  Love cannot die.  We have no way of proving this, yet from all that we know of love and life, we can believe that it is true.  Christians place their hope and faith in love.
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14.    THE MEANING WE ARE OFFERED

For our final reflection from scientific understanding to belief, let us see what Erikson discovered in his study of the qualities which human beings need in order to live and grow.  “..if developmental considerations lead us to speak of hope, fidelity and care as the human strengths or ego qualities emerging from such strategic stages as infancy, adolescence, and adulthood, it should not surprise us (although it did when we became aware of it) that they correspond to such major credal values as hope, faith and charity….Such proven traditional values, while referring to the highest spiritual aspirations, must, in fact, have harboured from their dim beginnings some relation to the developmental rudiments of human strength;”  (p. 58)

Erikson tells us that modern psychology confirms what Christianity has taught for twenty centuries.  We grow as persons through faith, hope and love.  We begin with the trust of childhood, from which faith and faithfulness can develop in adolescence.  These strengths are given to us by others’ love, and in adulthood we are established in love and can give it for the growth of others.  In our final age we have a new faith and a deeper hope, and at death we give up all in love.  Our meaning, and our ultimate goal, is to be our full selves through our relationship of love.  This is what God is and what we are meant to become.

Religious beliefs and human knowledge form the map which the traveller follows as he seeks his destination.  But when he reaches it the map is put aside.

“As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.  For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect; but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.  When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways.  For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood.  So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.”     (1 Corinthians 13 : 8-13)  
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We look for the resurrection of the dead,
and the life of the world to come.

Amen.

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CHAPTER 7 SUMMARY

We have looked at the main Christian beliefs in order to see how these may illuminate the events and stages of a person’s life-journey.

1.      THE END OF THE JOURNEY?

But this does not give us a complete explanation of Christian beliefs, or the full story of human growth: it just offers one way of understanding these.  And the adult stage is not the end and fulfilment of a person’s life.  There is the further growth-stage of old age, which Erikson links back to the earliest life-stages, in their development of trust, hope and faith.

2.      THE GROWTH OF MATURE TRUST

Now the person must begin to give up all that he has, and his very self, and trust only in God’s goodness.

3.      WE MUST PRACTISE THE ART OF LETTING GO

We all have losses throughout life.  If we have been able to accept them we will be prepared for this task in our last age.  Our losses can hurt us only if we cling to what we have.

4.      GROWTH THROUGH LOVING AND LETTING GO

Someone who has a proper self-image will appreciate all that he receives yet will be able to let go when he has to.  Suffering is not good in itself.  In some religious thinking it has been seen as a test from God, but this is difficult to reconcile with his goodness.

Buddhism teaches that all things cause suffering if we cling to them.  The Bible expresses various ideas about suffering.  Christians cannot believe that God wills suffering when they see that Jesus spent much of his life overcoming it.

Possessions are not bad in themselves: what matters is our attitude to them and what we do with them.  We should appreciate and make use of them, and be prepared to let them go.  Neither should we cling to people, but only love them truly without trying to possess them.  If we learn to love and let go, we will grow.

5.      SUFFERING AS SELF-GIVING

Isaiah suggests that the sufferings of the innocent can help others.  This is the ultimate possibility for growth: self-giving and appropriate self-sacrifice.  People accept hardship, suffering, even death, for the sake of others.  Does this make us better than God?  In Jesus, God gave his life to overcome our suffering and our death.

6.      FORGIVENESS:  THE HARDEST KIND OF LETTING-GO

To give up our hatred for someone who has injured us or a person we love is the hardest kind of letting-go.  But we are damaged if we do not do it and gain true freedom if we do, as Jesus did when he forgave those who crucified him.

7.      A NEW AND DEEPER FAITH

In our last age we face our greatest test of faith.  We have to give up the certainties we have clung to for security, so that we can go on with our search for truth in the mystery of God.  The mystics and poets can help us on our way, but in the end each of us journeys alone.

8.      THE ONE CERTAINTY

We must all die, and in death we face the total loss of the self.

9.      DO WE TRULY LOSE THE SELF?

In the Christian tradition we are taught to hope for life eternal, and that we will in some way be bodily present in that life.

10.   DEATH: THE REAL AND TOTAL LOSS OF THE SELF

But death is real, and we trivialise ourselves and our lives if we do not believe this.  It was real for Jesus.  He went into the dark, believing that even God had abandoned him, yet offering all that he was into his Father’s hands.  We too must at the end give our self to him holding on to nothing but our faith in his love.

11.   DEATH:  THE FINAL STAGE OF GROWTH

Dr Kubler-Ross, in her work with the dying, has found that death can give a unique impetus to the growth of human beings.  If we can face our death we can deal productively with the other changes in our lives.  From the experience of death in others and the acceptance of our own, we can learn how to live.

12.   DO WE HAVE A LAST CHANCE?  

Even those who have not grown well in their lives can do so when they face impending death.  Even in these last moments, people have been able to learn what really matters.  

13.   DEATH OFFERS US OUR MEANING

Death is a mirror, showing us what life should be.  The Resurrection tells us that we must give all we have and are to find our true self.  We have no guarantee of what will happen to us, yet Christians believe that if we become as God is we cannot cease to exist, because love cannot die.  

14.   THE MEANING WE ARE OFFERED

In his study of the qualities which human beings need in order to live and grow, Erikson was surprised to find that the principal qualities are hope, faith and love, just as Christianity has said.  Through these we become our full selves, and when we achieve this we will no longer need faith and hope but will be as God is – persons who have their being only in and through love.


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